(Note...The following is an IMTUF 100 race report written by my great friend Matty Tock. He finished his first 100 miler out there and I am happy to post his story. I'm not even going to read it before I post it. He's a solid, hard-working guy with a heart of gold. Enjoy.)
Ultra Shuffling Down Memory Lane
A Race Report by Matty Tock
Leading up to the IMTUF 100, a coworker of mine questioned
me about the seemingly senseless desire to race a hundred miles. It's a line I know all of us have entertained
ad nauseum since we have embraced our participation in this sport. In time, I'm sure that you all have developed
your own reasons for rationalizing to others why we do what we do. Perhaps, these reasons have even been forged
in the times when you seek to quell the questioning of your own mind in the
midst of that very endeavor. For me, I
have begun to take the more metaphysical route to explaining why I choose to
run. And once again, as if any answer
could really do justice, I looked over and answered it the best that I knew
how, "In my mind, it's like living an entire lifetime in the course of
just one day (or just a bit more, as I would come to realize)."
For me, this summer has been an experiment in managing the
laboring man's conditions in unholy temperatures and then topping each day off
with a quality training effort. So, when
I arrived at Burgdorf the evening before the race having taking the previous
two days off to prepare, it was the most rested I had felt in months. The anticipation that had been building was
released as I viewed the steam of the hot pool wafting through the evergreens
and above the decaying, but still inviting cabins. It gave way to feelings of
calm and relaxation as I sat and talked to the likes of the Boise running
contingent while signing in. In that
moment I was privy to some of the wisdom of Dennis Ahern to surviving and
thriving at these races along with the various methods to treating a yeast
infection, should you be left stranded on a mountain with only a cup of yogurt. They were words that I would draw upon
shortly thereafter, at least those concerning running.
In the morning, obscure orders from a madman on the other
end of a megaphone were heard being shouted at 5:15, hours before the sun would
begin to shed light on the course that was set before us. The calls were less alarming, having risen an
hour earlier, because I knew from previous experience to set aside time for two
or three pre-race bowl movements among the other tasks that needed tending
to. As the handful of racers who would
begin this race began to gather around the only visible lights for miles in any
direction, I experienced the smiling faces and exuberance of Tony Huff,
Christine Kollar, Derrick Call, and others whom I have come to expect at the
starting line of any local race. There
we were, in far less clothing that was appropriate for the temperature and with
more sugar than should be consumed in any calendar year, waiting for the moment
to take the first step of so, so many required to cover the distance of one
hundred miles. As the order was given to
release this pack, I gathered in a final few ounces of strength witnessing the
tears of a race director overcome with pride at seeing others who were willing
to give themselves to share in a place that was painted with his own blood,
sweat, and tears.
Overall, this was a veteran group that went out eager to
tackle the challenges that the next hours would present but with the wits to
know that they were to be undertaken patiently and without unnecessary haste. We climbed hard up Bear Pete Mountain without
breaking into a running cadence and descended swiftly without taxing precious
quad muscles that would be called upon for strength later on. Our reward for this approach was the sense to
experience the warm colors of a rising sun that flooded the granite walls
reigning above the tree line and the short, cautious bugle of a bull elk
perhaps anticipating the percussion of hunters' footsteps as the season
commenced. Both the miles and the
minutes were taken away with the upslope winds that blew up from the basin of
Upper Payette Lake below.
The first setback of the race came as a group of us were
busy basking in the relative ease that this course, designed to bring out the “TUF”
within us, was inspiring. It is always
within these clouds of security that adversity seems to be hidden. Was it a red, supped up Ford F-150 with an
unsuspecting cell phone caller that blocked our turn, dripping with pink
flagging, and caused us to veer off course?
Or was it the steady turnover of our own footsteps, their cadence being
repeated rhythmically upon the open road that distracted us from noticing the
turn? It is a question that will be
belabored again in the coming years when this racer forgoes yet another change
of direction on a course that he is only far too familiar with. Only this time, instead of plowing through moon
dust in the middle of the night with only the company and good graces of a
pacer, to a vacant parking lot over a thousand feet below, a substantial
portion of the rest of the field had followed along. As we turned back from Warren Wagon Road and
its paved path that tempted us into bee-lining it to the next aid station just
a short distance below us, the first notes of urgency began to play into my
mind. Had I so soon given away my best
chance of keeping pace with those stronger competitors ahead of us?
Instead of bringing the devastation that I feared this
mistake would, it was at this point that I unexpectedly gained the
companionship of the man to whom I owe all of the success that I would later find
in this race. I cannot express my
appreciation to Wayne Rancourt enough, he who has been tried and tested by so
many of these races himself, as he encouraged me in my pursuit of finishing my
first. Eager to make up for lost time
and ground Wayne and I began to pace each other in our efforts to make our way
back. While I struggled with the
disappointment of wasting precious energy so early, Wayne refocused my mind
towards the patience that we must use to mark our course back into the
competition. In minutes Wayne had
calculated a pace and the effort that we should use to climb our way back to
the point that we had been. Following
his lead, we limboed the blow downs littering the trail down to Upper Payette
Lake, plodded along the sandy banks of the Payette River, navigated the veiled
pitfalls of the Terrible Terrance Memorial Trail, and climbed the rocky and
sustained pitches of the Pearl Creek Road.
And, by the time we had reached the northern trailhead of the Crestline,
we had already found our way back to within striking distance of some of the
leaders of the race.
Despite donning a long sleeve in the morning for the first
time since early spring, mid-day temperatures were already being raised to
simmering levels. Two thoughts comforted
me then as we began pick our way across the exposed environment of the
Crestline trail; one of the consistently oppressive heat that we Boise
inhabitants had been forced to train in this summer and the other of the oozing
handfuls of sunscreen that Mike Blessing had smeared on me during our visit at
the North Crestline aid station. Both of
these things made the unremitting glare of the sun less of an issue than it
otherwise may have been. The challenge
that we could not avoid, however, would prove to be the hydration deficiency
that we would incur over this lightly aided stretch. I'll be the first to admit to, but never
preach, the practice of dipping out of creeks and streams in the high country
or, well, any country for that matter.
My time studying the wisdom of Ray Jardine gave me the courage to
initially begin the practice and my own dumb luck since has emboldened me with
it. Wayne, on the other hand, was more
reluctant than I was to submit, but he too was finding the looming perils of
dehydration harder to bear. In the end,
the only bit of help that I was able to reciprocate to Wayne in light of all
the sage advice that he gave me over the course of the race had the potential
to give us explosive diarrhea twenty-four hours later.
And so, as we continued to click off mile after mile with
empty bottles, I longed for the first bit of running water to wet our
whistles. Our first moment of reprieve
came at the sight of Box Creek. Yes,
this is the sport where our fearless race director had humped in two seven
gallon water jugs to and spent the painstaking time hand pumping them full of
pure, filtered water. Urgency and
depravity do strange things to a brain, including blocking out the sight of
streams of bright orange caution flagging overhanging massive blue jugs of
water. Wayne and I filled our bottles
and blissfully drank straight from the cold waters of that creek. We repeated the practice just a few miles
later, our bottles again empty, when those same survival instincts covered up
the signs that hundreds of sheep had been grazing, drinking, bathing, and performing
other functions that need no further explanation, in the depths of Blackwell
Lake. Explosive diarrhea and liver
flutes. You're welcome, Wayne.
As the day trailed on with a steady climb up and off of the
Crestline Trail, a dive down the dicey Falls Creek trail, and a spirited tempo
run into the Lick Creek drainage, we found our times yo-yoing with the
frontrunners of the field. Softer
sunlight and cooler temperatures had followed us into the valley bottom and with
them came my most spirited effort of the entire race. Rolling into the Lake Fork aid station, it
was a boon to see our crew, friends, and the fantastic group of volunteers. Nearing the halfway point, there was no hint
of tightness or spasms in the lower body, no queasiness in the midsection, and
no doubt in my mind that I was marching towards my first one hundred mile
finish. At that moment, I was feeling so rewarded for
the hours of training that I had put over the past year. Confidence was taking hold and filling me
with the determination, the kind that makes your limbs shake and brings near
tears to your eyes, to begin reeling in those ahead of us. As evening was approaching fast, we
resupplied with headlamps, warmer clothes, and more calories in preparation for
the night ahead. Feeling bold, I even
scarfed down some leftover cheese pizza from the briefing the night before. Foreshadowing the challenges that loomed
ahead, what I didn’t know then was that it would be the last bit of substantial
food that I would put down for the remainder of the race.
As I was becoming indoctrinated into the sport of ultra
running, a good friend and mentor of many sorts offered some sage advice for combating
the lows that we are sure to endure with the expenditure of so much over so
long. "Choose races," he said,
"that mean something to you. Those
special places will lift you up when you lack the will to do it for yourself." Living, running, teaching, and experiencing
the areas that became our IMTUF playground has gathered so many meaningful
memories of these places that they became a virtual string that effectively
pulled me along throughout that race. A
great deal of those moments deep within the wildest places of these mountains, were
served with a bow in my hand. I
apologize to those who may not agree with the practices of hunting especially
if that includes you, Wayne, because you endured so many of those stories. But, like running, I was shown how much richer
time in the mountains becomes when your eye is trained to observe another
element of it. Each time we entered into
some dark stringer of timber or crested some high lookout point, I recalled
times when I was awed by being in the midst of such power and cunning of an
animal like a bull elk. The idea that we
share the same places, experiencing the same hardships that the terrain
provides and the serenity that the mountain air can bring, imbues me with such
feelings of thanks and responsibility to them.
It was in this way that I was led through the troughs of fatigue at the Snowslide
saddle and the traverse of Twenty Mile trail when our spirits were dimmed by
the cover of darkness.
Hope and strength can be redeemed by those that we love and
the simple comfort that the sight of them can provide. Such was the case as we rolled down and out
of the Twenty Mile Valley and were spit out onto the sure-footed path into the
Upper Payette Lake aid station. The artificial
yellow glow of the spot lights and the buzz of their generators at the aid
station set a strange scene in the middle of the night after such a long time
wondering through such utter darkness and quiet. But, for Wayne and I, nothing could temper
the emotion of seeing our loved ones ardently waiting there. Even though my body language was unable to
say it then, my mind was full of appreciation and relief as Katie greeted me. I am thankful to have someone that stands by
me in support even when the signs of the abuse that we choose to endure
ourselves are so plain to see in moments like these.
After leaving Lake Fork with such vigor, our pace had
certainly slowed in the time since. This
was despite the constant reassurance that the crux of the race was behind us
and smooth, runable terrain was left to quicken our steps. As it stands, the reality of less challenging
sections on the IMTUF course exist only in relativity and, I believe, can only
be served as "comfort" to us runners on our way. The still grueling nature of the final
quarter of the course made the effort of the runners in front of us even more
incredible. Reports kept coming in that
Adam Wilcox was now hours ahead of us and moving along effortlessly. Kelly Lance and Jayk Reynolds were each battling
with issues of their own, exhaustion and sickness, but were so tough that they continued
to put time on us as well. In the
meantime, all of the climbing and descending that we had experienced during the
day were beginning to take their toll.
Approaching the final climb up Victor Mountain, I had entered into
walk/run mode whereby I would hold a jogging pace for as long as I could before
finding some relief from the mounting soreness in my quads with a walking
cadence. Ironically, the commencement of
the long, steady climb up Victor was welcomed at this point as the power hiking
gear seemed to remain somewhat intact when the others had not. Wayne surged uphill at this point; a testament
to his honed endurance and provided me with the means to continue pushing my
effort. While my heart was sinking
knowing that he was sacrificing his own effort to continue pulling me along, I
was thankful to be absorbing his lesson of resolve.
With some twenty five miles remaining in the race this was
the mode in which we would make our way towards the finish. All of the energy that had me riding so high
only hours before had since fizzled and faded.
Only the dogged determination to survive and experience the completeness
of my effort kept me going for those final miles through the Loon Loop and Ruby
Meadows back to Burgdorf. I thought of
nothing more than the satisfaction I would feel moving down the homestretch
towards the sight of all those I knew were waiting for us. I would cross that line, sit down to take the
shoes off of my swollen and aching feet, and join that crowd as a hundred mile
finisher. As I reflect upon these
memories and the others that I have collected during my short time in this
sport I have come to embrace these events as a celebration of the natural world
through running, one of the simplest and purest ways imaginable. For me, this is the most sustainable way that
I know to ensure that I will still be enjoying this process for many years to
come. That being said, I still like to
toe that starting line with hopes of being in the hunt until the bitter
end. On this day, the realization that
this race had escaped me set in sometime soon after the survival shuffle had
commenced. Instead, the goal finally became
what I knew it had been all along; to live through one hundred miles in just
one day (give or take a few hours).
In the end, what a treasure of shared experiences my IMTUF
100 truly was and I only mean to say thank you to everyone for being a part of
it. I especially want to take the chance
to recognize the caliber of people who volunteered to make this experience
possible for us runners. A special
thanks to Emily Berriochoa, Paul Lind, and Andy and Monique Testa, all of whom
so heartily welcomed us into aid stations and then so determinedly kicked our
butts out the door again. To Wayne, who
had the patience and good will to see me through so many miles to my first
finish, it was a run I will never forget.
Next time I’m sure you’ll think twice before following me down a cruiser
dirt road. To Jeremy, who I’ve shared so
much with in those mountains, no race could ever mean more. To Katie, who endures and supports while her
other half has to be running, thank
you and I love you. And to all of my
other friends that I have met and have inspired me on these courses, you have
made those moments so much richer and fuller than I ever could have imagined. Happy trails to all until next year.
Beautiful race report Matty. Nice work. Way to see it through all the way. Very inspiring!
ReplyDelete-Brendan
Congrats on the finish, Matt. You never forget your first.
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